Luna's corner

I want to believe
In fairy tales
But I’ll never see
My happy ending
Been strung up put in a box
Up in the closet
That’s my heart
Guess I can’t take any more disappointment.

I need a way out
Someone to hold my hand and say
There’s a way out
You don’t have to do this alone
I can help you out
I guess it doesn’t even matter anymore
When there’s no one there
So who cares where this will lead

I needed trust
To pour my soul out
Find a way
To let the pain go
Guess I better get a rope make a noose
And hand myself
Can’t take this shit
I’ve had all the disappointment I can take.

I need a way out
Someone to hold my hand and say
There’s a way out
You don’t have to do this alone
I can help you out
I guess it doesn’t even matter anymore
When there’s no one there
So who cares where this will lead.

Cope June 2014

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I’ve looked in the mirror
And tell me what should I see
A broken shattered piece of me
Is all that remains?
What happened to the woman
That was warm and full of love
There’s nothing left inside my heart
There’s emptiness in my soul
If anyone can see me
Just reach out for me

I’ve lost myself
Somewhere in the world
I’ve been looking for a brighter day
But it’s not in my sight
Someday I know
I’ll find that place
If it takes a lifetime
Even in my mind.

So morning’s come and go
And so do the nights
Nothing seems to bring a smile
Out on my face
So everyday I pray
Hoping I can find the warmth
That I know used to fill my heart
To light up my life

I’ve lost myself
Somewhere in the world
I’ve been looking for a brighter day
But it’s not in my sight
Someday I know
I’ll find that place
If it takes a lifetime
Even in my mind.

Cope June 2014

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There’s times that I feel
Like everything's wrong
Can’t find a voice of reason
My minds in doubt
Trying to stay strong
When I’ve lost my mind
I’ve lost all hope
There goes my hope

My mind’s been provoked
There goes all my hope
Can’t sit on my knees
Got won’t listen to me
I’ve used all my faith
I’ve been shattered and abused
When I stand I fall down
There’s no chance let me go
Can’t go on

You keep being pushed
To keep moving on
What does life matter
At the hands of a slave driver
Take what I’m given
I don’t think so
I’m tired of the fight
Just let me die

My mind’s been provoked
There goes all my hpe
Can’t sit on my knees
Got won’t listen to me
I’ve used all my faith
I’ve been shattered and abused
When I stand I fall down
There’s no change let me go
Can’t go on.

Cope May 2014

As a sinner I just keep walking
Digging my grave deeper in the very end
So I closed my eyes and looked up that night
Kept praying for once that I’d find the light


I’m ready to find the truth
No more lies for me
I’ve never been so lost
I’d never seen the light
Whenever I see fear
I can never feel
One day my time will come
Someday my time will come


So I looked up into the night sky
And one by one the stars began to show
The darkness gave way to the lights above
And soon enough I could see my world


I’d never seen the stars
I have never felt
As warm as I am now
Emotions stirred inside
The fire slowly dies
Embers are there to stay
I can live with this
I can live with this


So once my journey has started
I can’t give up on the very hope
That I tried to give up but then I felt
When my dreams began to take my hand


I had been asleep
There were no dreams
Inside my world
Just my nightmares
Whenever you see me
I promise you my dreams
I’ll give to you someday
I’ll give to you someday.


7/14/14

I've been chasing the demons for so long
Nothing matters to me anymore
Been trying to find my way out of the dark
But it feels like I keep getting lost

If you ever take the worn out beaten path
Promise me you'll never stop where I'm at
There's no room for a little regret
I promise you I've already drowned Yea

I've been patched up along the way
Fallen down a time or two
I've tried to stand up on my own
I've never felt so alone
You don't have to help me stand up
Just take a shot like everyone else
It doesn't matter what I think
I've never felt so alone.

I've seen others take my path
Quickly turn around I can't blame them
I promise you I'm not here by choice
Got dropped off so I could jump

When I take a step to find my way out
Someone finds a way to blow my light out
Now I'm back in the dark
And everyone wonders why I can't trust Yea

I've been patched up along the way
Fallen down a time or two
I've tried to stand up on my own
I've net felt so alone
You don't have to help me stand up
Just take a shot like everyone else
It doesn't matter what I think
I've never felt so alone.

9/14/14

I’ve never kept a secret
And much to my surprise
Anyone can tell the way
I’m feeling don’t you know
Even if I’m lonely
I’m like an open book
You can see the way I’m feeling
By looking in my eyes

I try to hide the loneliness
And feelings deep inside
But I guess I’ll always be
The one that hides the way I feel
Even on the days where the sky is shining bright up in the sky
There’s always something on my face
That you can always see

The flowers are so beautiful
Even in the fall
The dew upon them in the morning
Makes you feel alive
And even though my heart fees so alive
I’ve only felt the stirring love
Once upon a time

I try to hide the loneliness
And feelings deep inside
But I guess I’ll always be
The one that hides the way I feel
Even on the days where the sky is shining bright up in the sky
There’s always something on my face
That you can always see

Peggy Caroline Cope 10-15-14

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The morning dew surrounds me
In the morning light
I can feel the heartache
That followed me all night
Whenever I’m alone
And it’s beautiful outside
I miss the thought of someone
Holding me all night

Someone come and hold me
I think I hear my name
I know I’m only hearing things
Because of what I want
How could someone love me
If I can’t love myself
Could anyone come and show me
The way to win my heart

The breeze blows gently
In the evening night
The moonlight glows all around
But still I cannot feel
How can it be
There’s no stirring in my heart
Just the emptiness inside
Of the lonely night

Someone come and hold me
I think I hear my name
I know I’m only hearing things
Because of what I want
How could someone love me
If I can’t love myself
Could anyone come and show me
The way to win my heart.

Peggy Caroline Cope
10-15-14
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It’s been a while sense I was held
In the arms of someone else who felt
The same as I did for them
And even now I say I miss
The person who has gone away
But what I really miss is someone holding me
Whenever I see the lovers out
I know that I’m missing out
And I never really thought of all that love
But now as age starts creeping up on me
I know that what I want to feel
Is someone holding me close to them.

Hold me close as the summer rains
Start falling in the night
The winter snows have called my name
I know I need the warmth of you
Close to my heart
Whenever spring starts calling out
A time for all the lovers shout
Starts calling out to fall
The time has come to say goodnight
I’m thankful that there’s love out there for me to find someday

I keep looking out to find the one
I know I don’t have the time
But still I cannot help to look for you
And even when the morning glories
Show their selves in the morning
By noon they’ve gone
And left no trace at all
Could winters cold embrace start calling
Hook and sink my heart that’s falling
Even if the sky is nice and blue
Because in my heart I know I feel
The only thing I’m meant to feel is blue

Hold me close as the summer rains
Start falling in the night
The winter snows have called my name
I know I need the warmth of you
Close to my heart
Whenever spring starts calling out
A time for all the lovers shout
Starts calling out to fall
The time has come to say goodnight
I’m thankful that there’s love out there for me to find someday

10-16-14 Peggy Caroline Cope

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I’ve fallen from the grace of God
I don’t see how he looks down on me with love
Whenever I feel the loneliness
I say a prayer just to ask
T see if he even looks down on me at all
The darkness has surrounded me
I try to find a way to see
But even in the emptiness of my heart
I’ve found nothing but a make believe
Kind of life that I can see
That makes everything seem real when it’s not.

Someone show me a way to see
The sins of my evil deeds the way I see life
I know that I’ve been shunned away
I’ll never get to see the day
When everyone gets to gather to celebrate life
We all know that day will come
When the streets are paved with all the gold
And there are mansions high above the clouds
But I’ll be turned away from there
Nobody would want me there
So I’ll ask for someone to say a prayer for me

I've tried to walk the lightened path
Not the beaten worn out path I’ve known
I keep looking for a sign to say
That everything will be okay
But I know that it won’t come
Tomorrow is a brand new day
And everyone keeps telling me
That All I have to do is just keep faith
But the nights are getting lonely
And it’s cold inside the broken heart of mine

Someone show me a way to see
The sins of my evil deeds the way I see life
I know that I’ve been shunned away
I’ll never get to see the day
When everyone gets to gather to celebrate life
We all know that day will come
When the streets are paved with all the gold
And there are mansions high above the clouds
But I’ll be turned away from there
Nobody would want me there
So I’ll ask for someone to say a prayer for me

10-16-14 Peggy Caroline Cope

There’s times I looked up
And wished you were here
But you were gone
And there I was all alone
I cried my tears
I’ve had enough
Now its time
For me to move on

Its time to say goodbye
It’s time for me to move on
And it’s time for me to show myself a little love
I might go out some night
See some friends I ain’t seen in a while
Who knows I might even get rid of your memories
It’s time for me to move on

There’s always a chance
You’ll pass through my thoughts
But it doesn’t mean
That I’m still yours

Its time to say goodbye
It’s time for me to move on
And it’s time for me to show myself a little love
I might go out some night
See some friends I ain’t seen in a while
Who knows I might even get rid of your memories
Its time for me to move on

Its time to say goodbye
It’s time for me to move on
And it’s time for me to show myself a little love
I might go out some night
See some friends I ain’t seen in a while
Who knows I might even get rid of all your memories
Who knows I might even get rid of all your memories
It’s time for me to move on

1/31/15 Peggy Caroline Cope

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Times were hard
And I needed something more
My heart had sunk
And my sun was setting
Then you walked in
The same as I
And slowly both
We began to heal
I’d never loved
So hard before
My innocence
So pure with love
Now as we sit here
I write to you
My hearts desires
To be with you
I could never love someone
As much as you
So with this ring
Our vows are made
Forever will our
Love hold true
Peggy Caroline Cope 1/31/15

I admit I'm a sinner
I've done wrong in my life
But I've never failed another
Like you've done to my own heart

I've never made a promise
That I never failed to keep
My heart weeps at the wrong done
And the heartless life you've lived
But I know deep down in my heart
There's so much good I do believe
That someday you'll come back to me

You've torn my heart a time or two
Even lied to save yourself
You've left me in the dark now
All alone with my thoughts

I've never made a promise
That I never failed to keep
My heart weeps at the wrong done
And the heartless life you've lived
But I know deep down in my heart
There's so much good I do believe
That someday you'll come back to me.

I've never made a promise
That I never failed to keep
My heart weeps at the wrong done
And the heartless life you've lived
But I know deep down in my heart
There's so much good I do believe
That someday you'll come back to me.
Peggy Caroline Cope 3/15/15

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I have dreamed in a lifetime
My whole life before my eyes
I'll never see that dream though
As I walk this lonely path

I've cried a million tear drops
As I prayed to God for strength
How can I a lowly sinner
Ask from him so very much
If I don't I'll keep on falling
Till I can't stand on my own
All I know is Jesus died for me.

I have fought my own blood
Crashed and burned my whole life through
I wear the scars so very proudly
As I try to set me free

I've cried a million tear drops
As I prayed to God for strength
How can I a lowly sinner
Ask from him so very much
If I don't I'll keep on falling
Till I can't stand on my own
All I know is Jesus died for me

I've wept until I couldn't
Knowing God was there for me
He was strength when I couldn't
Keeping me from drowning still

I've cried a million tear drops
As I prayed to God for strength
How can I a lowly sinner
Ask from him so very much
If I don't I'll keep on falling
Till I can't stand on my own
All I know is Jesus died for me.
3/15/15 Peggy Caroline Cope

You were always there for me
In my heart I’ll always be
Your only; my only one
You held me in your arms
And you told me stories of
Our family; from long ago

You told me stories of
When you were young
Your precious memories
I’ll carry on inside my heart
Not only were they yours
But for a moment in time they were mine
That we shared

As a child you played with me
You took me places I may never
See again; with my own eyes

Now that time has changed us all
Here I am taking care of you
In your old age; but I still love you

You tell me stories of
When I was young
Your precious memories
I’ll carry on with me inside my heart
Not only were they yours
But for a moment in time they were mine
That we shared
9/8/15 Peggy Caroline Cope
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I’ve seen my life on the horizon
And what I thought I saw looked better
Was just a glimmer of hope
That I feel like I’ve already lost

I feel my spirits falling
What smile had returned
Is no longer there on my face
How am I supposed to see my life
When my beating heart can’t take the downs

When will the tears stop falling down my face
Will I ever see the darkness disappear
Can I face the demons surrounding me
Even when the fear I hold inside my heart
Doesn’t that set me up for failure
I promise you I can’t do this alone

I used to smile and dream of bigger things
I used to think someday I’d have something of my own
I’ve lost sight of things that matter in my heart
Now here I am standing in the rain

When will the tears stop falling down my face
Will I ever see the darkness disappear
Can I face the demons surrounding me
Even with the fear I hold inside my heart
Doesn’t that set me up for failure
I promise you I can’t do this alone

9/8/15 Peggy Caroline Cope